lazy

im a super duper lazy ass, and finally its comfirmed, im starting my diploma too le, starting right this coming sat.. yeah

kinda sucky, dun feel like going back.. im already getting sick, have to worry tio punishment.. so many stuff to do now, and nobody wanna cooperate, everything doing is just so troublesome, a lazy and absentminded person like me, juz aint suited, hope its all over soon.
maybe if theres a deal, after ord-ing, i will go to work as game testor!, haha, as long as the pay per hour is like $5+, shld b quite relac.. and keep got money come in.. yeah man

and yeah.. sat at sentosa was so so huh.. somehow the enthu-ness just doesnt come naturally in volleyball, unlike almost every other sports. maybe its just a mind block i have. got so tired.. when i slept on thursday, when i got home.. sleep from 10pm to 4pm liddat.. lol 18 hrs?.. and just when i wake up now.. i've already sleep like 12hr again.. sibei jialat, at home also die die always sleep v late, den if go out need wake early, inside i also will watch show till v late, n need wake up early, think the constant lack of sleep is gonna get me sick, the sickness which i needed since long ago, maybe too long nv sick is bad for health, lol =x

messy

hmm, dying to find fun, but at the same time i realised i need to study, and at the same time i signed up for the part time diploma course, to get my game designing diploma. its like hell messy n hell busy.
its really so bloody bored now, how to make life more fun sia, but b4 tat oso not much money, and oso i actually shldnt b bothering much abt tat, the fact im bothering so much abt how to b fun is because im not studying all the time! damn, returning my ps2 to my cousin now, and also need to start camp studying..
this sat will be the day when jelly and i beat johnson n chow, n i shall save them from going to sentosa every week! haha, and maybe they can come join me with chi kin in doing bouldering for a start and train up for rock climbing! yeah time to get back to rock climbing!




rock climbing's really fun and challenging
though i suck in competition since i keep
being too gan jiong and miss out alot of tiles!








and yeah .. but of coz missing taiwan





the hawker centre at shi lin, it was really nice there, really fun





















lots of mountain at taiwan yeah..













and yeah, the prettiest of them all, hebe
haha, haven uploaded the pic i took from i guess..




maybe the only fact is i haven let go of all these, juz keep wanna play, time to get to the new part of my life i guess, study hard.. keep upgrading myself, become a damn gd game designer! as a programmer?!, whatever, juz to get into huge companies like square enix, konami n participate in major projects... keep studying and working on project, and.. play?? yeah

whole bz day today.. n yesterday..

b4 booking in today.. happily spent the whole day sleeping.. was tired like shit from the lack of sleep the past few days.. totally slept from like 630 till now.. abt 730.. 13hrs.. lol
yesterday, slept not enough.. early morning jay walk.. to realise i nv look past the road, and see 3 policeman in front of me! then kena fine for 20dollars.. jaywalking -_-.. fainted
then for NDP rehearsal, got a quite cute ger with her dono sis or wad n her 2 mother there, den she rushed to serve me drink?! lol quite funny, anyway we were speculating whether shes like below 20.. while i initially thought that shes like sec 3, kee said shes definitely over 20, well wanted to bet but no 1 dare to ask her age, lol.
after that.. reached orchard quite late.. like 830, to see malcolm msg to ask me to MOS, since hes going field camp 2 wk confinement.. well, asked ck n cr to go together.
so juz went cr house.. put my stuff n off we go...
MOS quite nothing, but we went to the bar, or eating place, or dono wad la.. drink the tink.. quite nice eh, after 12 its 50% off?.. den the huge cup of dono wad drink, too chim le cost like 18 bucks.. quite worth the drinking, blueberry de tequila and lime de tequila, then we proceed to MOS again, rather empty, den malcolm suggested we go somewhere else at 3+..
cr die die mai go, lol, while we go take a look around, then had our supper, and i nv go get my bag from cr in the morning, tired.. go home.. sleep till now.. no need claim my bag need book in already, lol, wheres my PSP!?
oh.. n.. none of these include studying.. shit shit shit shit, muz keep screwing myself to study already.

oh yea, last wed.. went zouk, well, been like more den 6mths, went with KEN, my medic on the motorbike.. haha experienced super high speed maneuvering, which normally not at midnight wun have one, nearly flew out when he suddenly speed in front of zouk from a stop lol -_-.. phuture was full, so we decided to try velvet, and yea i managed to get in.. initially dun wanna buy drink one.. scared drunk tio, but drink my free drink plus ken one.. sian tio no fun.. though no 1 for 1 le.. i juz bought graveyard at zouk there, and.. yea its not bad.. decided another cup at velvet.. oh yea, velvet atmosphere nice for drinking sia, quite high class liddat.. and the 2nd cup at velvet, wa, starting drink thought die le, its much more power den zouk one.. though its cheaper.. 40% off, lol wanna ask ken drink abit but as usual he didnt drink.. dun wanna waste so juz drink all to get abit over shot, lol, shit, and in the end half drunk standard sat motorbike went back.. when i told ken if i overshot let me go back on cab -_-.. heng nothing happened.. anyway zouk was hell more packed and fun as compared to the last wednesday i went, quite surprisingly yeah..

unpredictable future

so.. back in singapore for awhile.. been doing nothing but Dotaing and now CnCing.. ps2.. psp.. crap.. totally nv did anything.. nv register to learn car.. nv do anything.. super duper lazy
damn bad, realised, or to say reflected over again, im super duper unindependent. how'm i going to go U w/o my parent helping to pay 1st at least or my brother.. and even so, before that, i realised im lacking money.. n working.. though worked b4 but i nv really work much.. wad to work n will i earn enough to upkeep myself.. ahhh, damn bad..
after tat.. even if i really do well for A's this time n get into U.. after learning game design stuff.. well.. what can i do, not much future for gaming, or try set up a company by myself, its all too complicated, need support from parent again?? or else where to get the funds, n wad if fail.. totally dono where on earth im heading,maybe in the end as a normal worker at a singapore game company with low salary of maybe 1k+ to 2k+?
maybe the path will be easier if i fail A.. i go to japan or taiwan to learn game designing? den juz join the major companies there after faring well? haha, well, but hell no, i must work hard for 'A's.. though i've done nothing yet.
IT MUST ALL START AFTER THIS BOOK IN ON WEDNESDAY!
lets see.. i must use less computer... no clubbing after this week, restrain from overnight activities.. minimum kbox.. maybe sometime go bball, which im too lazy to even go out..
ahhhhhhh, i must start learning to b independent and do some useful stuff instead of doing shit thing! yeah